In another 10 more days, we are leaving the year of 2011, embarking into another new year of 2012.
While I paused, and retract back the year of 2011, I smiled. Because, it has been a good one. In my career, it has been a good one. In my love, it has been a good one. In my family, it’s getting way better. In my friendship, we are grown. Within myself, I have turn to be better. Finally, my days are no longer in darkness, in a lonely corner where I hid and cry myself like how I used to.
Well life, is so much about learning and everyday we are learning to be better.
I have learnt that love is not everything, but just a portion in life that makes it perfect. I have learnt that, life ain’t easy but we constantly looking for a balance point that makes us feel much better.
Few months back, one of my colleague’s sister has passed away. She, was only in mid 30s. She had a lung cancer. She battled for the disease for months, tried many ways to fight against it. Finally, she has lost in the battle and go. She, has beautiful family, siblings and a wonderful husband. The day when she died, she was dearly missed by her dad, siblings, families, colleagues, friends, and husband. I have never met her, but having to deal with the feelings of “waiting” for a miracle to happen, hoping that the God of Hell will not bring her close family member away everyday, it’s unbearable. Her husband, still posted messages on his Facebook, counting how many days she has left him. Still unwilling to let go.
Now I am so afraid, afraid I am leaving earlier than them one day, and left only painful memories. Life is only once, no take-2. I hope in coming years, I learnt to cherish, every single little things happen to me, and be grateful for every single souls that happen to walk into my life.
Having said that, recently I find that I am starting to have a bad memory. Not sure if it’s due to aging (stepping into 30s) or lack of supplements, I tend to easily forget things. I hope to keep a diary everyday, because I am afraid of losing those memories I am building now.
God asked me to draw up my dreamboard. I was reluctant, but knowing that I have to, I forcefully did it. This, is what I did. I hope one day, I will be able to achieve them all. ;)
